One day I will wake up and wont have a
migraine. My day will go on like any other human being. I won’t have to worry
about taking any drugs, prescriptions or even being cautious.
One day I will be able to drink like a fish, my
liver wont stop me from drinking at any point so I can be free from that
thought. There will be a day where my mom wont wake up every night with fear
just to see if I’m having an attack or not.
One day I will be happy that all my worries are
gone and will not be scared to go to sleep. I will make sure that there will be
a day where I can drink 4 gallons on coke without even thinking about what it
does to my bladder. My bestfriend’s are drugs; Norflox, Topomax, Tegretol,
Broufen and I can go on. As a child my dreams were filled with pressure, not
the kind of pressure that your parents put you through, I had the pressure of
two trains ramming my head together. I would get up in between and I would be
sweating and my hand or leg would go numb. Do you know what’s the worst? When
your whole face goes numb and you can’t call anyone for help because it hurts,
it really hurts. All you can do is wither and cry.
One day, I will wake up and the world will
sleep because they need to know how I feel when I am dormant. I can’t go
swimming alone so I just stopped swimming, I tell people “swimming’s not my
thing, I just like to sunbathe” , I can’t drive, when people ask me why I don’t
want a drivers license I just tell them “I’d rather get a car and someone drive
it for me”. I try not to care though, my life’s pretty much going in the right
direction.
One day, I will fight my way through and be
someone no one could be. I promise you ma.
